THE KILLERS MAKE EVERYTHING EVERYTHING BETTER

I loved this by Bright Eyes, but The flippin Killers!!!!! I felt this was pretty irreverent by Bright Eyes so I stopped listening to it. In fact, no more Bright Eyes for me ever. Some of his lyrics describe exactly the feelings I have a hard time expressing. I really started to look into the songs I love the most and all I really get out of his music are feelings of futility. How sucky is that? Even if I can totally relate, who needs the negativity?! The Killers always make me happy and they totally made this song awesome for me again. Still, the lyrics....

hmm...

When I'm strict on my AJATT, and listen to absolutely no english music, I am happier and I worry less. I've been off track since work got crazy in August. Work's crazier than ever, but whatever I'm going to get back on track!

Doesn't help that I posted here instead of at lang-8.

It sits on my mind that I should update this. So posting this should help that feeling go away. I read the 7 steps to stop worrying from stopping you and .... I'm working on it. I have a list of things I need to do, most of them are keeping diaries of my feelings and whatnot. Bleh. Might do it here, and might not. Might wait a bit longer to tackle my fear of emotions. Emotions and worry are connected, how weird is that?

「神は、実に、そのひとり子をお与えになったほどに、世を愛された」　『ヨハネ　３：１６』


「私は、私を強くしてくださる方によって、どんあことでもできるのです」　『ピリピ　4：１３』

No kanji today since I got Dragon Quest IX in the mail today!
Trying to translate dialogue bubble by dialogue bubble is FUNTIMES
イザヤール　（ISAIAH???)
天使らいめいよ。
Angel of heavan, Raimei
よくがんばったな。
You did a good job


らいめい
私にかわりこの村の守護天使をまかせたときは少々不安ではあたが。
Entrusting me as this town's substitute guardian angel I'm slightly afraid
おまえのわたりきにより
Depending on your function,
村人たらも安心してくらしているようで。
Your way of living can bring relief to the village people

りっぱに役目を引きついでくれて。
このイザヤール師として
これかはウオルロ村の守護天使らいめいとよばせてもらうぞ。

！！！

おじいちゃん
フウフウ！年はとりたくないもんじゃ
苦労かげるのう　リッカ　よ

リッカ
がんばっておじいちゃん
村までおとちょっとだよ。

むむむ！これわいかなのままでわ　

I'm trying to savor this day as much as possible, but I can only watch as it slips through my hands.  This is it.  My college years are over.  Things seem more finalized after writing that down.  I don't want to dwell, I just want to remember it's passing.   It was a time period that wasn't terribly spectacular or out of the ordinary.  It was, however, mine. 

I was a timid freshman in a long-distance relationship with a loser and had 'cavewoman' as a roommate.  I was a lost, but beautifully blooming child my sophomore year, despite my failed relationships.   I was finally seen as someone older my junior year, but I was self-destructive and it led to a powerful illness.  I found my Travis. I was a sick and antisocial senior, learning my lessons and keeping myself busy by making up classes and hanging out with Travis.  I was strong and brave for my adventure in Birmingham to finish up my degree.

Now the music speeds up and I will learn a new dance.  Finding a job, finding my balance. 

***
Snapping out of it, I made cupcakes.  They were fun to make, but now I feel a bit embarrassed for taking them to work.  I made the frosting into cells.  It was just like painting~!  I got to mix the food coloring with the frosting to make all sorts of colors.  I took some pictures, but it really is such a cheeseball thing to do.  I know that they'll appreciate it, tho.  I'm going to miss these guys so bad!  I can't believe I'll never see any of them again (Just being realistic).  I can guarantee that I had the most fun at my clinical rotation.  Possibly learned the least amount.

I'm excited for crisp, fall mornings.  Of all the things I've started to randomly remember, I remember our homecoming parade the most.  Both the literal and figurative atmosphere.

Since then I've been so good at vanishing

I managed to figure out how to use the free internet here in the dorms.  Mwa ha ha!  It feels like I am getting away with murder.  The sucky part is that my power strip keeps losing... well, power.  I'm trying to download the raw to Lovely Complex 17 from megaupload and its taking forever with all this power downs.  I just really don't want it to break my computer so I better make it to Walmart tomorrow to buy a new one. 

I'm only going to be here three more days~!

So much to write about and yet I don't want to keep my computer on much longer.  I will say that, after the new JKR interview, I feel much better about Deathly Hallows.  I just don't understand why she couldn't work in these detail to that damned book.  I just wanted to make sure George was alright, is that so much to ask?!

Did I mention three more days?
I sent in my resume and reference list to Heather in Wisconsin and I should hear back in a few  days if she is able to find me a job (I'm still not quite sure about all this staffing agency business)  I really  REALLY need to start studying for my boards.  I planned on using this week of no internet to start studying.